Tonight in the studio

Hello. Life's been busy and I've been away from the blog. I had a very good studio visit last week. It gave me some insight and direction which is invaluable. A friend also visited recently and gave me some of his brutal honest insight. Also helpful.

I revised my site a bit this morning. Realizing that the first thing you see when my site opens is text. I thought it might be better if art is the first impression. So much swirling around in my head lately and trying to keep things organized is monumentally challenging. One step at a time. Tonight I have some time in the studio and the next couple of days as well. 

Lot's of planning on many levels, the stores, my studio and prepping the house for a summer rental.

To be continued.

Last night was good.

Hello. Yes the studio was good last night. I have many paintings going all around me, some are finished some nearly finished. Last night I reworked a few with some good results. I allowed a shadow or hint of a tree to venture into an abstract landscape which was a dilemma but I decided to take a risk and get over my self. If I fear taking a chance than I might as well give it up because it will then cease to excite me, if not today than tomorrow.

I worked till rather late and unintentionally skipped dinner. I got a late start at eight pm, just dove in and then lost track of time. Of course I did remember two cups of coffee but after a day with just two in the morning I was really excited about that coffee. It was delicious!

More to come with an image.

How quickly time flies.

Hello. Yes it does. That alone is enough to make we want to sit on the couch. But not tonight. Tonight I am in the studio pretending that I am great and my work is worth making. I actually like where things are going re: work but it is work and...well nothing.

So I've dropped my painting off for the Guild Hall Member's show and I am very pleased with my choice. I will post it. Yup that's it. I wish that blogging was a little more personal, I want to write and be private but that feels like a waste of time. It also feels very alone which is something that I am most of the time anyway so at least there is the possibility of connecting.

Another great development, I have a studio visit this Wednesday with a new gallery in EH, I am so pleased that the director said yes to a visit. It will be nice to have someone check things out objectively and hopefully have some input. I do look forward to it. 

This is brief, Have a great time. 

My effort to be positive.

This graphic is the announcement for a group show I am in, the painting below is the work.

I usually  begin my posts with the greeting Hello. The following in italics is an update to the post below. Now that we have that established. It is beginning to rain which is what we need as it is spring and things are growing and it's been pretty dry. Fire igniting dry - not good.

I was exercising outside today watching a couple of hawks or falcons not sure which but clearly hunting. I guess that is all they do. I wonder do they fly around just to fly or do they conserve energy and fly to hunt? Their only predator here would be man and his gun during hunting season anyway it was a beautiful sight. They have white under their wings I think they are Peregrine Falcons. They sure have that flying thing down. What's great is seeing a few smaller birds chasing them away from their nests. This is the time when they get easy food I guess with all the eggs hatching. Terrible. Nature can be like a horror movie, gruesome. 


I am at the store for a couple of hours and then in the studio for a bit tonight, continuing all day Thursday, Friday and some of Sat. and Sunday...lucky me. I've sent a couple of mailings through Constant Contact and getting some results. One response said they would consider me for a group show. Progress - now I need to continue the newsletters to let them know I'm not kidding. I owe this to John. He has been encouraging me to start this for a long time and I resisted.....why? I don't know. Fear? Feeling hopeless? All of the right. It really is immobilizing. 

I have to contact someone about a studio visit. She said she would call me but it seems a little overdue so I think I need to make a move. 

Regarding the mailing that I sent yesterday I received a response from one person today simply saying REMOVE so I responded "okay" I then googled the guy to discover He is wanted for fraud. There is a site with a post about this guy and his dirty business. Then a followup from him defending himself. What a world - that will teach me to look a little further into whom I send letters. One negative is not a bad average. I've been told No certainly but never in such a nasty way. I'm smiling now knowing that no one wants to sue me over bad business dealings.

Hello. Yes that is my challenge. I've been in a bit of a funk which is nothing new, sometimes a nice chunk of time goes by without the mood swings but yesterday was a bad one. So today I feel better I awoke early and got to the studio for an hour then exercised for about an hour before coming to the store. This was a better way to start the day for sure.

Continuing with my cutting sugar routine things are good I've certainly had some but not the norm and that is a positive change. I've said no on occasion which is a miracle and that is no exaggeration. Sugar has been consumed in large quantities most of my life so to think about going without is a huge. That alone encourages better eating habits so I am expecting to feel great in time. Both mentally and physically. Every little bit helps. 

On  different note I must say, hearing the garbage coming out of Ted Nugent does not help much. I don't even like having his name polluting my blog but there is no other way. He is a terrible person that is all. 

Regarding the studio it is never easy and I can often forget but then reminded. It seems and I have said this before that it always feels like it is new and uncharted. I've used the phrase "it feels like I'm reinventing the wheel" which sounded right but as it turns out that is not the correct use of that phrase. Well I never claimed to be a rocket scientist. Anyway yes it feels like uncharted territory quite a lot. This is good in many ways but when floundering around with things it's not the most reassuring feeling. More on this later. Why is it so easy to forget the positive and remember the negative?  Why? Maybe I need my first tattoo something that I will see all the time to remind me. I don't and never have wanted one but there must be some way to look up instead of down.

Back in the studio....

Hello. Yes it is Sunday and I am back in the studio for the day. It is a beautiful Spring day and there is lots to do. I feel the pressure of time but that is nothing new so I am deciding to plow ahead and make the best of it and more important enjoy the work. 

I spoke with a family friend last night at dinner and it was a brief conversation about painting because it is always difficult to talk about painting when at a dinner table with many people - many of which don't really have that interest. Anyway this guy could clearly talk about painting all night long. I am not always able to let people in but I am certainly glad I did last night as I saw a different side of someone. I am pretty one way in many ways as art is all I'm really interested in. With that stupid comment said I am off to work. I hope you all have a great day.

By the way, I was in the city briefly on Friday and I saw this friend on the street who I seldom see and of course in my head I thought she doesn't like me. How crazy it was a wonderful meeting and I will stay in touch. That's it I will not fall out of contact with her again. So much of the negative shit is all played out in my head while alone in the studio of wherever.

Hello.

 

Hello. These two paintings are views of Montauk from memory. The bottom is a view from the old Warhol estate and the other is a view of Montauk further east. I had a desire to make these paintings but did not want to make them in the traditional way so I tried to incorporate what I am doing now.